I always dreamed of being an artist. I wish I could paint like Picasso and instill dreams in people like Vincent van Gogh. I know a lot of artists. In fact, there are a lot of artists in my family. My mom is a computer artist – she can create beautiful things with the click of a mouse. My parents and sister can decorate cakes like a boss (get it… Cake Boss?). Both of my sisters are painting/drawing artists and know how to bring life and adventure to a blank canvas. My husband is a natural musician who put me to shame after my attempt at taking piano lessons … how can one play better than someone taking lessons after merely looking at sheet music for 15 seconds? Needless to say, I quit piano lessons after that.
I wanted to be an artist who could create something out of nothing. Here is one of my pieces you can (NOT) find in stores worldwide. I made it bad on purpose (laugh).
I’ve tried my hand at writing songs, painting a thing or two, and considered signing up for cake decorating classes on multiple occasions.
I dream of creating something beautiful. I dream of creating something that will brighten someone’s day. Turn that frown upside down.
After thinking about this pattern of starting something one time or quitting before I even started, I realized something.
I have a difficult time putting myself out there.
I have a difficult time admitting that I need help.
I have a difficult time admitting that I am “bad” at something.
I want to be strong.
I want to do things well.
That’s all fine and dandy, but progress takes hard work. It takes blood, sweat, and tears. It takes failing and starting again.
It takes perseverance.
True strength is working hard on something you may not be the best at. It’s being intrigued by the distance you have to go instead of letting that distance defeat you.
This is is something I want to work toward in 2018!
I want to let go of how others might perceive me and work toward trusting God and work to let Him strengthen my weaknesses.
Even when I am weak, He IS strong!
2 Corinthians 12:10 (NLT) says, “That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
Now, instead of looking at a blank canvas or blank pages with defeat, I am looking with hope. May you take your blank canvas and turn it into hope this year.
Here’s to a wonderful 2018,