A Blank Canvas

The thing I love about art is that you can create something inspirational, insightful, and thought-provoking with the stroke a brush. I always dreamed of being an artist, a creative, someone who unashamedly puts their thoughts and dreams on paper without fear of what others have to say.

I wish I could paint like Picasso and instill dreams in people like Vincent Van Gogh.

I have to admit, I am not gifted for drawing or painting. I’m too impatient and often too hard on myself. I once had an art teacher completely change an assignment (self-portraits) to (just) portraits, because mine did not resemble any of my traits. Nor anything even remotely close.

Here is one of my pieces you can (NOT) find in stores worldwide. I made it bad on purpose, REALLY (laugh).

I’ve tried my hand at writing songs, painting a thing or two, and considered signing up for cake decorating classes on multiple occasions.

I dream of creating something beautiful. I dream of creating something that will brighten someone’s day. To help others turn their frown upside down.

However, I do come from a family of artists.

My mom made these beautiful and delicious cakes. She poured her time and talents into creating something to brighten someone’s day – to unite people and bring them together on a momentous occasion:

My sister is also an artist. She can paint, draw, and create unique things when she carves out some time to just allow herself to be creative. She has ALL kinds of stuff I wish I could feature:

After much thought about what inspires me about art, I realized that nothing has to be set in stone when you create. You are allowing your mind, hands, eyes, and heart to feel, be, and just create. You are allowing yourself to dream big dreams. You aren’t setting limits. You aren’t giving up before you even begin the journey. You are able to realize that God has instilled HUGE dreams in that creatively oozing heart of yours.

I have a difficult time putting myself out there. Allowing others to reject my attempts at creativity.

I have a difficult time admitting that I need help in different areas of my life.

I want to be strong.

I want to do things well.

That’s all fine and dandy, but progress takes hard work. It takes blood, sweat, and tears. It takes failing and starting again.

It takes perseverance, courage, and determination.

True strength is working hard on something you may not be the best at. It’s being intrigued by the distance you have to go instead of letting that distance defeat you.

This is is something I want to work toward in 2019!

I want to be intentional in all its forms:

  • I want to enter 2019 with a “blank canvas” mindset, being open to opportunity, building relationships, being more creative, not talking myself down, not constantly fearing rejection or ridicule of others.
  • I want to enter 2019 trusting God with my canvas, letting Him be the Lead Artist. I want Him to mold me into something unique – someone who unashamedly proclaims His name, who unashamedly admits that she doesn’t have it all together, someone who opens her eyes, mind and heart to His plan.
  • I want to enter 2019 with an authentic heart. One that isn’t afraid to admit her shortcomings. One that isn’t afraid to ask for help. One that isn’t afraid to admit that my screaming, food throwing toddler often overwhelms me because I want to instantly “fix” things. Children don’t work that way. It takes much patience and perseverance, just like art! Parenting is definitely unique and new-to-me in all its forms.

I want to let go of how others might perceive me and work toward trusting God and work to let Him strengthen my weaknesses.

Even when I am weak, He IS strong!

2 Corinthians 12:10 (NLT) says, “That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”

Now, instead of looking at a blank canvas or blank page with defeat, I am looking with hope. May God take your blank canvas and turn it into hope this year.

What are you looking forward to in 2019?

Here’s to a dream-chasing year in 2019!

Let’s throw kindness like confetti and not be afraid to chase the passions that God has instilled in our hearts.


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